It hurts to have a break-up like this. This time, I know it’s for real. In the past, we’ve had a lot of break-ups but no, you never let me go. You listen at the sound of my sobs, you put me to sleep and tell me that I should rest for I need to have energy tomorrow. You still remind me of eating. You still take care of me. You act as my bestfriend.
Now, this break-up is nothing like those in the past. You talked to me for a while. Ask if I’m okay. I’m half-expecting that you’ll tell me that you still love me because that’s the way we work right? We make up immediately because you, yourself, realize that your life wouldn’t be complete without me.
But now, nothing. I love you babe. I will always do. You made me cry, you made me stop crying but you also made me love you and you can’t do anything for me to stop feeling this way. I love you with my whole heart, babee. We made promises, made mistakes, made happy memories. But I didn’t ready myself for this fall in the ground. I love you. I love you to death.
Minsan maiisip mo na lang na parang lumipas yung panahon na parang walang nangyari sa inyo. Nakakalungkot isipin na parang wala ng katapusan yung kasiyahan na nadarama mo non. Yun bang hindi mo maiisip na baka bukas eh wala na siya. Talaga pala na minsan wala kang clue na bigla na lang mawawala sayo yung tao.
Kahit ipaglaban ko pa…
Kahit naman ipaglaban mo, kung ayaw talaga sayo. Wala kang magagawa eh. Ang benefit lang kapag pinaglaban mo eh sa huli ay wala kang pagsisisi. Kasi sinubukan mo eh, hindi ka nanahimik sa isang tabi. At hindi mo man nakuha ang gusto mo? Ang mahalaga kampante na ang loob mo at maitutuloy mo ang buhay mo na tahimik at walang natitirang katanungan sa sarili. Wala yung mga “what if ginawa ko?” Mga simpleng katanungan na ganun.